The inner monologue of Courtney Ball:
Me: Ok, that's it. Christ's love is unconditional. UNCONDITIONAL. So dear Courtney, I say to you: LOVE PEOPLE UNCONDITIONALLY. That means without conditions!!
Me 2: Well if it's alright with you, I'd rather just constantly revert back to things and dwell on them. I relentlessly try to let them go, but that lovely thing called my humanness keeps wanting even just one little thing that will make my love worth giving.
Me: Jesus, anyone? He's quite the helper when it comes to things such as this.
Me 2: Well, yes, and I've petitioned him relentlessly every day, asking if I am doing the right thing, but all I get is silence. So I don't know what the Lord wants. I constantly worry that I've missed what He's saying because I am no good at being quiet.
Me: Did you ever consider that maybe you haven't heard anything because you are doing exactly what he wants you to? And if he really wanted to say something to you, your lack of discipline in the being silent department would not be enough to stop him.
Me 2: Sometimes I dream of punching you in the face, me.
Me: Well now that wouldn't be very smart would it?
Me 2: .... (in writing, this is like a thought bubble).
To unconditional love!!
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