"I'm not disappointed in you, I'm not angry with you, so don't turn your face from me, I'm in love with you......
Do you know the way you move me?"
I have never heard a more beautiful song in my life. I heard it for the first time last night, and I can't stop listening to it. It's so hard for me to listen to a song about the Lord speaking over ME and telling ME the way I move him. How often have I heard the message that the Lord is disappointed in us when we turn from him? I mean, I'm sure it makes him sad, but God is love, right?
All this time, I feel as though I've been stuck under this mentality that every time I screw up and the more I screw up, the Lord becomes increasingly disappointed in me. Which is CRAZY. I mean, I've grown up in the church, how is it that I don't realize how much he loves me?
He IS love. Though the dictionary can't be bothered to include the Lord in the definition, I know in my heart of hearts that He is the very definition of the word. They are one in the same.
This hasn't been the greatest season for me, but I have got to start calling out truth in my life and speaking out against the lies of the enemy that I will never be able to overcome the sin in my life. This journey is a process. But there is one unchanging constant: the Lord. He is with me through everything, Lord, why do I forget?
Break me.
Tear down these walls.
I desire raw God.
I desire intimacy.
I desire all of You.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
New Adventures :)
It's been a while since my last post. I've just been working my life away and doing my best to find joy in the mundane, because even in the mundane, the Lord is as real as ever.
Just a quick update: Lately my prayer has been that the Lord would simply make me aware of Him. And man, did I not realize what that would look like! I can remember from while ago, the Lord gave me the word simple, as well as giving a friend of mine the same word to speak over me. And that's exactly how I'd describe my relationship with the Lord lately. Simple, but beautiful.
I have the opportunity to visit my best friend this summer. I myself am unable to raise the funds I need, because every last cent is going toward my last year at Mount Vernon Naz! But I so trust that if I am to be there, the Lord will see me through.
My friend is a staff member with Youth With a Mission- http://www.ywam.org/. She is currently serving at a base in Kona, Hawaii leading a DTS (Discipleship Training School) that will start in less than a week. YWAM has always been an interest of mine after I graduate, and it would be amazing to get a taste of what the ministry is like!
My need is right around $1,000 for a round-trip flight the first of second week of August just before I head back to school. The most helpful thing anyone could do would be to support me through prayer. I so believe in its power! :)
If anyone has any extra flyer miles lying around or would like to support me through a donation (though I am not asking specifically for that) that would be the richest blessing.
Thank you to all of you who took time out to read through this. God Bless you!! :)
In Christ,
Courtney
Just a quick update: Lately my prayer has been that the Lord would simply make me aware of Him. And man, did I not realize what that would look like! I can remember from while ago, the Lord gave me the word simple, as well as giving a friend of mine the same word to speak over me. And that's exactly how I'd describe my relationship with the Lord lately. Simple, but beautiful.
I have the opportunity to visit my best friend this summer. I myself am unable to raise the funds I need, because every last cent is going toward my last year at Mount Vernon Naz! But I so trust that if I am to be there, the Lord will see me through.
My friend is a staff member with Youth With a Mission- http://www.ywam.org/. She is currently serving at a base in Kona, Hawaii leading a DTS (Discipleship Training School) that will start in less than a week. YWAM has always been an interest of mine after I graduate, and it would be amazing to get a taste of what the ministry is like!
My need is right around $1,000 for a round-trip flight the first of second week of August just before I head back to school. The most helpful thing anyone could do would be to support me through prayer. I so believe in its power! :)
If anyone has any extra flyer miles lying around or would like to support me through a donation (though I am not asking specifically for that) that would be the richest blessing.
Thank you to all of you who took time out to read through this. God Bless you!! :)
In Christ,
Courtney
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