I've always entertained the question:
"What do they have that I don't?"
It wasn't necessarily a comparison question, though I did struggle with that for many years. More or less it was almost a frustration brewing within me. Perhaps it would be better phrased in this way:
"Why can't I have what they have?"
Yes, I was covetous. Still am when I allow the enemy to toy with my heart. I coveted their relationship with Jesus. It just came so naturally to them. Like second nature, they just seemed to be constantly in tune with the Spirit. Honestly, it was like a holy frustration.
So I found myself wondering, where do I go from here? Or better yet, how can I have what they have?
Well, the best (and perhaps most frustrating) thing that I have come to realize is that what they have has also been inside of me all along. Within a millisecond of creating us, we were filled with the glory of the Lord. It is inherent within us.
Isn't that why so many are constantly searching for the one thing that will make them ok? Or really even more than ok. Something that will fill them to the brim and maybe even make them overflow with joy? Laughter? Beauty?
I've had that all along. The problem came when I convinced myself that there was something I had to do, a certain way that I had to be, in order to obtain it. But isn't that the richest beauty of the gospel of Christ? That it is for EVERYONE? And it's freely given?
See, I think that my friends that I am referring to that just seem to have it figured out really do have it figured out. They are fully aware of the good work of the Lord within them, and the only reaction that makes sense to them is to just say yes. To step into agreement with the plan of the Most High King and simply say "I trust your plan. Here I am. Send me."
Oh that we would all realize who we truly are. Oh that we would dance. Oh that hearts would come fully alive.
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